To me, fairness does not exist. It only exist if the situation favour u... I hate myself and hate the way i portray myself to ppl. What do ppl say about me? Ppl: Lynn's talkative, noisy , loud and maybe a funny presenter? I learned that what u portray will affect how ppl treat or feels about u. So ppl like me should be pin-pointed and be used as a bin for ppl to vent their frustration. PPL OUT THERE PLS DUN JUDGE A PERSON UNLESS U R CERTAIN THAT U KNOW THEM WELL. It hurtful...
Lynn u r good! u r funny! what is the definition of good? Seriously do u remember what i presented or u think that i am good cuz i am entertaining enough? I did not pin-point to anyone cuz i am sensitive enough to know how the others might feel.
So....am i a clown in my presentation? Is that the Lynn that u think she is??? ya of course i dun denied that i am noisy. These are parts of me that i hate. Do ppl who think think this way about me thought that i am not worth their respect? cuz she's like that....
Everybody took diff module and r busy with it, so am I. It's pointless to compare who is busier. Furthermore, if ppl out there have something in their mind about what i wrote. Pls think thrice. Ppl who also NEVER volunteer to be a presenter pushing the unwanted task to me. What position do u have to say such a thing?
So Lynn cant be sensitive cuz she is crappy? Lynn cant be serious cuz she is always joking. Lynn cant kept secret cuz she is talkative. Is that what ppl think? I swear I never spill out secret that i promised to keep.
A good thing to be soft-spoken person is that u are reliable, super nice wont gossip about ppl and will kept secret. Crap and phew... Never judge a book by its cover!
Ppl who are more reserve and serious often get more respect and have their feeling sensitively taken care of. Do anybody dare to ask him to present? What i dun understand is by consensus our groups split up the load and also by consensus we draw lots for see who present then why assigned the task to me. So issit fair to me? And by right everybody should contribute to a project, i am glad that my group has no free rider but from the distribution of load and effort contributed. Fair?
Some benefits were mentioned to me. Who doesn't knows? i can further add points:
However, nobody wants this "excellent" job. Whatever said cannot be undone. I won't pushed away my responsibility cuz it was me for draw the lot. What i am unhappy about is being misunderstood and pin-pointed. And if ppl really think this is beneficial pls offered to take it from me, otherwise pls just keep quiet cuz it just sound like sarcasm.
The reason for me to post this is not to reprimand anyone. Just hope that i can be slightly respected and not taken for granted. I was jus writing this as my personal opinion. Ppl who do have something in their mind about me i do accept criticism!!! I wanna clarified i am noT scolding or finding fault or whatsoever.
I just wanted to jot down what i am feeling at the moment.
I will probably laff at my stupidity in the future....