Wednesday, February 20, 2008
On 19 February 2008, she had left us.They say she’s now in the heaven blessing over us. However, I selfishly wish that she can be with us longer.
There’s so much regret especially when I dun get to see her the final time when she’s still with us.
Some things just couldn’t wait. That morning I woke up at 6am and couldn’t fall asleep.
At around 6.15am, the phone rang and my heart sank.
My mum picked up the phone and let out a growl.
I knew that the nightmare I dreamt last Friday might come true.
I don’t know what to do except to cry, I should have pay her a visit after the lab, why din I have the thought of it but abort that thought thinking that she will be waiting for me to visit her the next time?
At around 2.30 pm, those people brought her back. This is her home and she had been living here for more that half her life.
I hesitated to see her; I might still be in the nightmare. I thought. But there’s no way to escape from the reality. She must hope that I will grow up strong and independent that’s why she can leave us in peace.
She is pretty, lying there still and peaceful with a smile.
She have no only given me my name but also given me lots of love that i could never forget.
She will always live in our loving memories.
Friday, February 15, 2008
At last, i finally got online.... Cuz of the stupid connection problems.Dar is working today so I spending my V-day doing nothing. At least we meet-up for lunch for a short while. U still own me a fine dinning!!! Just in case u have forgotten. haha
Tml got Yoga. Arggh.. It issit as nice as i thought. Now i feel tired just thinking of having to attend it... After that I have to rush out to meet dar to eat the yummy vegetarian. It was the nicest vegetarian food that I haven eaten. For more infor, I shall update it tml. hehe.
Anyway as I was walking home, i recall the awful sights weeks ago... On my way to the train station, i saw a bird on the signboard munching deliciously on a struggling cockroach!!! The dying cockroach wriggling out it's feets for the last struggle.
Yucks... Birds nowadays feed on every thing. Although I hate cockroach, the horrid sight of it being eaten wasn't that pleasant too.
Why do i always remember non-important things? How I wish I can have this kind of super memories in my studies.
Talking about memories, this morning jus msn with kim kim chin. Both of us are disappointed cuz we did not gather at Zt house this CNY. And that kuku MIA lo.... KuKu if u happen to read this. pls dun b angry already, cuz u have been angry wif us for a year already!!! hee a bit exaggerate but 2007 old stuffs should be forgotten, I know u not so xiao qi one. Oops... Haha NS can also have life one. Looking forward to see ur lame kuku face soon!!!
Wednesday, February 13, 2008
I am blogging in the school?!?! Too bo liao already.... Have to stay till 6 pm to go dar house for dinner. Somemore today he is working late, so there's no one in the house.Joanna's so cruel go home and sleep, so i intended to study in the com lab recommended by KimKim Chin. she say this is a quiet place suitable for study. End up.... i been playing wif facebook and started blogging. How to study in front of a com?There's so many tempting stuff for me to do.... Somemore the connection here is so good. My house com like got problem need few hours to complete a post, this explain y i haven been blogging recently.....And i so so so sick of organic lab. I think it's meant to torture ppl. can u imagine the smell of the organic compound on ur hand for 2 days. My fingers are peeling cuz of the stupid chemicals and i been washing my hands for umpteen times WITH SOAP and the smell is still there. Somemore, the first week of the nightmare practical i lost my sample. Request a new one from th lab tech... OMG i dunno how many marks was deducted from me. I got nagged by the lab tech before he prepared a new sample for me... I must have made myself infamous again..... Argh how to survial in NUS when i keep making a fool out of everything.
Pray to god~
Please let me complete my practical safely~
Grace's gg back to scotland soon. I will be missing her and lily... Hope to graduate soon so i can start travelling soon!!!
Hope that ah ma will be fine~ hear that she had just been admitted to the hospital again. I Love U ah Ma. Must Get well Soon ....
Tuesday, February 5, 2008
So fast it's gonna be Chinese New Year 2008 soon! Oops.. i haven been blogging for a month. Went to funan just now to get a new camera batt. Thanks py and kim kim for accompanying me. Kim kim must take more Vit C if not new year can't bai nian.I am so damn tired after rushing my lab report, the train is so crowded. As usual i would take all the way to marina bay to find myself seat. On my way back, there's this idoitic indian boy.... keep bouncing near me, even put his stupid face so near to me. And when i stared at him, he juz stuck his tougue out showing me a disguising idoitic face. Damn mad lo.... The shameless mother dun even care abt the manner of her son, what she care is just chatting wif her friend. Hello... MRT is a public transport, Not ur son personal playground. Arggh.... I da ren bu ji xiao ren guo.
On 4 of Feb, practical was cancelled cuz of CNY. I finally chat up with Grace, and this time round i met the new member of our family- Lily.
Da~ ta~~
She's cute issit she?
She is the celeb of the day, getting her to face the camera is tricky!
Tks to my sis for being a good photographer. Caught Lily facing the camera.
She's looking for her mummy now. Lovely lily wont u let aunt lynn carry u for awhile?
we left the house when she's eating. Bring u out next time u are in s'pore next time . By then u should be able to walk on ur own. =)
Thursday, January 10, 2008
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Thursday, December 20, 2007
Can Anybody tell me how Christmas was celebrated? It is an occasion to celebrate the birth of Christ, so how exactly do one celebrate them?I mentioned in my blog that i loved Christmas and it has been my favorite festive occasion. I think i am too shallow to say that?
That's very Lynn....Like or dislike something for no reason...
That's me with low EQ... anyway my logic is only hypocrite have high EQ cuz they fake their feelings and pretend to be noble and kind suppress their anger and act to be innocent.
In fact i dun really know how to celebrate it as well as the true meaning behind it. Ironically, there's ain't any Christmas tree which i hope i will have eventually there ain't Christmas decor or Christmas feast. I rarely have Christmas party to attend, even if there is, it's usually quite taxing for me to attend.
At least, Christmas exchange was part of Christmas. But my enthusiasm dies off quite alot already as i dun know why do we have to do so during Xmas? I used to think them it was fun and interesting. I still do have the same feeling now is just that i dunno y I'm doing that. Maybe i seeking out for too much logic which is actually nothing but simplicity for joy and sharing.
How do couple celebrate Christmas?
I seriously dunnoe!!!!Most of the Christmas i have to join his family's Xmas feast. And there was once with Yongtai and ah K doing christmas exchange with us. And long long time ago, i was with them again at cineleisure pasta mania hoping to see firework, which of course ain't any.
Am i imagining that other couples are doing sth different? Maybe i watched too much idol drama i was becoming as toxified as yongtai.
Lynn should come back to reality whereby there's no happily ever after.
Monday, December 17, 2007
My feet ached again. This time was worst then the previous time it ached even when I'm not walking. This aching have been with my for years already. It really restrict what i want to wear cuz i can't wear heels.Dar was not working today and brought me to the osteopath. Sorry Dar u should be resting at home today from yesterday's night shift but u still insist of bringing me to see the osteopath
That person only rubbed on one of my foot, he ask me to come back again for another leg when i recovered. I wasn't allow to touch water, neither could i eat something sour or spicy. Today's raining of course wet a bit.
We planned to eat the congee after that but it eas closed... So i bring Dar to eat the xiao long bao. Normally it's packed wif ppl but today there isn't any ppl in there. It's so weird the entire shop only Dar and me. So we just left after eating. Poor Dar was so tired that he sleep immediately upon entering the MRT.
Maybe some lucky soul haven been treated unfairly before, but i encountered unfairness all the time.The feeling of non-existence is unbearable. Imagine nobody care whether she is alive or not, whether she is depressed. It might b a miracle tat she was even remembered.
I can only say All human being are borned wif different fate. Some ppl are princess to everyone else.
I can only feel existence whenever i wif Dar. Thanks Dar for your patience, understanding and concern. I think only u this sa gua will value me in this world. U will remember and pay attention to whatever i said and liked. Never forget about my birthday and tried to gif me the pressie that i wanted. U will always support my decisions and lend me a pair of listening ear every time for almost 8 yrs without fail.
How do i live without u?