magic

2008-02-20T08:42:00.001+08:00

On 19 February 2008, she had left us.

They say she’s now in the heaven blessing over us. However, I selfishly wish that she can be with us longer.

There’s so much regret especially when I dun get to see her the final time when she’s still with us.

Some things just couldn’t wait. That morning I woke up at 6am and couldn’t fall asleep.

At around 6.15am, the phone rang and my heart sank.

My mum picked up the phone and let out a growl.

I knew that the nightmare I dreamt last Friday might come true.

I don’t know what to do except to cry, I should have pay her a visit after the lab, why din I have the thought of it but abort that thought thinking that she will be waiting for me to visit her the next time?

At around 2.30 pm, those people brought her back. This is her home and she had been living here for more that half her life.

I hesitated to see her; I might still be in the nightmare. I thought. But there’s no way to escape from the reality. She must hope that I will grow up strong and independent that’s why she can leave us in peace.

She is pretty, lying there still and peaceful with a smile.

She have no only given me my name but also given me lots of love that i could never forget.

She will always live in our loving memories.

2008-02-15T00:12:00.003+08:00

At last, i finally got online.... Cuz of the stupid connection problems.

Dar is working today so I spending my V-day doing nothing. At least we meet-up for lunch for a short while. U still own me a fine dinning!!! Just in case u have forgotten. haha

Tml got Yoga. Arggh.. It issit as nice as i thought. Now i feel tired just thinking of having to attend it... After that I have to rush out to meet dar to eat the yummy vegetarian. It was the nicest vegetarian food that I haven eaten. For more infor, I shall update it tml. hehe.

Anyway as I was walking home, i recall the awful sights weeks ago... On my way to the train station, i saw a bird on the signboard munching deliciously on a struggling cockroach!!! The dying cockroach wriggling out it's feets for the last struggle.

Yucks... Birds nowadays feed on every thing. Although I hate cockroach, the horrid sight of it being eaten wasn't that pleasant too.

Why do i always remember non-important things? How I wish I can have this kind of super memories in my studies.

Talking about memories, this morning jus msn with kim kim chin. Both of us are disappointed cuz we did not gather at Zt house this CNY. And that kuku MIA lo.... KuKu if u happen to read this. pls dun b angry already, cuz u have been angry wif us for a year already!!! hee a bit exaggerate but 2007 old stuffs should be forgotten, I know u not so xiao qi one. Oops... Haha NS can also have life one. Looking forward to see ur lame kuku face soon!!!

2008-02-13T16:12:00.004+08:00

I am blogging in the school?!?! Too bo liao already.... Have to stay till 6 pm to go dar house for dinner. Somemore today he is working late, so there's no one in the house.Joanna's so cruel go home and sleep, so i intended to study in the com lab recommended by KimKim Chin. she say this is a quiet place suitable for study. End up.... i been playing wif facebook and started blogging. How to study in front of a com?There's so many tempting stuff for me to do.... Somemore the connection here is so good. My house com like got problem need few hours to complete a post, this explain y i haven been blogging recently.....

And i so so so sick of organic lab. I think it's meant to torture ppl. can u imagine the smell of the organic compound on ur hand for 2 days. My fingers are peeling cuz of the stupid chemicals and i been washing my hands for umpteen times WITH SOAP and the smell is still there. Somemore, the first week of the nightmare practical i lost my sample. Request a new one from th lab tech... OMG i dunno how many marks was deducted from me. I got nagged by the lab tech before he prepared a new sample for me... I must have made myself infamous again..... Argh how to survial in NUS when i keep making a fool out of everything.

Pray to god~

Please let me complete my practical safely~

Grace's gg back to scotland soon. I will be missing her and lily... Hope to graduate soon so i can start travelling soon!!!

Hope that ah ma will be fine~ hear that she had just been admitted to the hospital again. I Love U ah Ma. Must Get well Soon ....

2008-02-05T23:23:00.001+08:00

So fast it's gonna be Chinese New Year 2008 soon! Oops.. i haven been blogging for a month. Went to funan just now to get a new camera batt. Thanks py and kim kim for accompanying me. Kim kim must take more Vit C if not new year can't bai nian.

I am so damn tired after rushing my lab report, the train is so crowded. As usual i would take all the way to marina bay to find myself seat. On my way back, there's this idoitic indian boy.... keep bouncing near me, even put his stupid face so near to me. And when i stared at him, he juz stuck his tougue out showing me a disguising idoitic face. Damn mad lo.... The shameless mother dun even care abt the manner of her son, what she care is just chatting wif her friend. Hello... MRT is a public transport, Not ur son personal playground. Arggh.... I da ren bu ji xiao ren guo.

On 4 of Feb, practical was cancelled cuz of CNY. I finally chat up with Grace, and this time round i met the new member of our family- Lily.

Da~ ta~~

She's cute issit she?

She is the celeb of the day, getting her to face the camera is tricky!

Tks to my sis for being a good photographer. Caught Lily facing the camera.

She's looking for her mummy now. Lovely lily wont u let aunt lynn carry u for awhile?

we left the house when she's eating. Bring u out next time u are in s'pore next time . By then u should be able to walk on ur own. =)

2008-01-10T10:03:00.000+08:00

You Are An ISTP

The Mechanic
You are calm and collected, even in the most difficult of situations.A person of action and self-direction, you love being independent.To outsiders you seem impulsive, surprising, and unpredictable.You are good at understanding how all things work, except for people.
In love, you tend to be very easy going and flexible.The only thing you can't stand for is someone trying to change you or your life.
At work, you can stay completely calm under pressure. You handle stress well.You would make an excellent pilot, forensic pathologist, or athlete.
How you see yourself: Logical, flexible, and unconventional
When other people don't get you, they see you as: Indecisive, flippant, and disrespctful

What's" Your Personality Type?

2007-12-20T23:55:00.000+08:00

Can Anybody tell me how Christmas was celebrated? It is an occasion to celebrate the birth of Christ, so how exactly do one celebrate them?

I mentioned in my blog that i loved Christmas and it has been my favorite festive occasion. I think i am too shallow to say that?

That's very Lynn....Like or dislike something for no reason...

That's me with low EQ... anyway my logic is only hypocrite have high EQ cuz they fake their feelings and pretend to be noble and kind suppress their anger and act to be innocent.

In fact i dun really know how to celebrate it as well as the true meaning behind it. Ironically, there's ain't any Christmas tree which i hope i will have eventually there ain't Christmas decor or Christmas feast. I rarely have Christmas party to attend, even if there is, it's usually quite taxing for me to attend.

At least, Christmas exchange was part of Christmas. But my enthusiasm dies off quite alot already as i dun know why do we have to do so during Xmas? I used to think them it was fun and interesting. I still do have the same feeling now is just that i dunno y I'm doing that. Maybe i seeking out for too much logic which is actually nothing but simplicity for joy and sharing.

How do couple celebrate Christmas?

I seriously dunnoe!!!!

Most of the Christmas i have to join his family's Xmas feast. And there was once with Yongtai and ah K doing christmas exchange with us. And long long time ago, i was with them again at cineleisure pasta mania hoping to see firework, which of course ain't any.

Am i imagining that other couples are doing sth different? Maybe i watched too much idol drama i was becoming as toxified as yongtai.

Lynn should come back to reality whereby there's no happily ever after.

2007-12-17T23:21:00.000+08:00

My feet ached again. This time was worst then the previous time it ached even when I'm not walking. This aching have been with my for years already. It really restrict what i want to wear cuz i can't wear heels.

Dar was not working today and brought me to the osteopath. Sorry Dar u should be resting at home today from yesterday's night shift but u still insist of bringing me to see the osteopath

That person only rubbed on one of my foot, he ask me to come back again for another leg when i recovered. I wasn't allow to touch water, neither could i eat something sour or spicy. Today's raining of course wet a bit.

We planned to eat the congee after that but it eas closed... So i bring Dar to eat the xiao long bao. Normally it's packed wif ppl but today there isn't any ppl in there. It's so weird the entire shop only Dar and me. So we just left after eating. Poor Dar was so tired that he sleep immediately upon entering the MRT.

Maybe some lucky soul haven been treated unfairly before, but i encountered unfairness all the time.The feeling of non-existence is unbearable. Imagine nobody care whether she is alive or not, whether she is depressed. It might b a miracle tat she was even remembered.

I can only say All human being are borned wif different fate. Some ppl are princess to everyone else.

I can only feel existence whenever i wif Dar. Thanks Dar for your patience, understanding and concern. I think only u this sa gua will value me in this world. U will remember and pay attention to whatever i said and liked. Never forget about my birthday and tried to gif me the pressie that i wanted. U will always support my decisions and lend me a pair of listening ear every time for almost 8 yrs without fail.

How do i live without u?

I got my boot!!!

2007-12-16T23:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday went out with suyong. And both of us got the same boots. Yeah been thinking to get one v long time ago but worry about ppl's criticism like very exaggerating etc. But i just dun care cuz i really like it alot. And is really getting common to wear them in s'pore now.

Like to go out with suyong cuz always can get somethings from our shopping spree. =)

Posing wif our new boots. Happy!!!

She is as skinny as even. Can u pls eat more that 2 mouthful of noodles, never eat how to gain weight?

I like the celebrities hat used to have one but lost on the bus. ha ha That was quite long ago i took it out when i was in the bus cuz i feel uneasy as almost everybody in the bus was looking at my hat. But i left it on my seat before alighting. Sotong me!!!

How do i look wif the celebrities hat? i know i look a bit stunned in that pic. But it was so crowded pai seh to take photo mah. But dun think I'm getting one, already got quite a number of hat but din really wear them. Often bought thing on impulse, all becuz of Dar lah! everytime ask him whether the things are nice he will say nice or okay lo, after i buy then he say the things not nice. Argh.. can give me good advice or not. But i forgive him cuz i know he does that cuz he dun wanna dampened my mood. =P

Today is another happy day, cuz i get to rest at home. Been going out everyday after exam I'm so tired. I went out wif my mummy today, went to chong pang for lunch. And i bought $2 4D for fun. Shouldn't have buy and waste my $2 my number didn't come out . Haiz dunno y ppl like to buy 4-D.

Talking about chong pang, just went there to celebrate Keong's birthday on Friday 14/12/2007, which is just after the chalet. Been so long since our last meet-up... But the food is still as yummy the cereal prawn and my favourite tofu. And finally got to pass 美美 and keong the Europe souvenirs, those have been in my house accumulating dust for months already. 美美 so gan dong that i got him pressie tat he almost cried. And i specially brought my camera out to take some pic, but end up din take any.So sad!!! Stuck wif the habit of taking photos everywhere ever since EURIP II.

美美 complaint that he hasn't been watching movies for a long long long long time so we being super 好心人，of course accompany him lo. Despite being in 1/2 coma state, i still watch Warlords wif him. He buy CD before the show ma, i just being nice and offered me help to keep them for him so that he can enjoyed his show more comfortably. Poor me! Kna yue wang by him for intending stealing him CD. So horrible!!! Dun think u 美 can anyhow yue wang ppl ok.

Takeshi is so handsome he seem to gets younger and younger now. Issit because of the make-up? Make-up really makes wonder. Andy lau is forever cool that i dun have to comment further. About that show... erm okay la not too bad . Perhaps it's not the best time for a person who sleep only 4 hrs in 2 days to watch such movie.

I feel so bad cuz i say i will sleep in the chalet cuz i dun want bad complexion but i didn't! Lynn has poor discipline.... What worst is i never rest after that as well. My complexion now is really hopeless, not only that i lost my voice and sound like Donald duck now.

Cant go KTV at the moment. So sorry sis, Yongtai and yude they all. Pls postpone the KTV sessions for me. It's very terrible to go KTV if u cannot sing, cuz u will be very tempted to sing when u hear those songs, but if u sing u not only will hurt ppl's ears but u voice will be cuter than Donald duck.

2007-12-13T11:24:00.000+08:00

Lynn is finally gg to the chalet today... Haha looking forward to the water bomb game that we planned earlier on. So tired i think i will wanna sleep tonight staying overnight is bad for complexion and i have to give tuition tml. All because of that stupid kuku if not we already have our chalet ytd then tonight i will be able to meet Dar at night for movie.

This chalet is one of my To-do-lists activity, I still have to many things yet to be completed. This holiday's short and i dun think i will be gg overseas... I want to go Hong Kong and Taiwan or Shanghai. Forget it since i have so many things to do too.

Looking forward to the fun awaits. ^v^

Enchanted

2007-12-12T01:10:00.000+08:00

Finally i get to watch Enchanted. It's was a nice movie contrasting the reality and the fairytale stories. In reality we dun go around praising ppl or appreciate the beauty of the others, we dun sing and express out thoughts to the one we love. In fairy tales the princess, will always b surrounded by lovely animals, waiting for her prince charming etc. It's a 老掉牙 story with wicked stepmother trying to poison the innocent princess with the poisonous apple. But trust me it's nice the songs are nice too. When the princess sings Ah¬ah¬ah Ah¬ah¬ah Ah¬ah¬ah all the lovely animals like the chipmunks, rabbits, sparrows and butterflies will come. But in reality only pigeon cockroaches and rats will come. That's really funny.

Done my Mandi & Pedi lo. Have a look. The manicurist say that it's a SIA colour.... But i think some other will say it's an 'Ang gong gong' colour.

Ta da...

And the disaster happen again...

Why do i always met ppl when i looked ugly? Argh... I looked so pale and ugly with dark circles and everything but met Joanna and Jessica coincidentally. Do u guys also encountered this? when u are all ready to meet 熟人 , u wont meet any but when u look super ugly and dun feel that u will see 熟人, u will see them. Argh.... Sad!

Was happy to go out with Dar.. Not happy because it rained for the whole day and i can't take photos of the nice Christmas decor. Finally the rain stopped, i get the chance to pose in front of the only Christmas tree outside plaza singapura.

Because of the rain there's lesser ppl posing in front of the Christmas tree too. Then i saw this cute Teddy bear. It's as cute as my Teddy Dar. Poor Dar getting darker and darker because of the work. Must Promise me to apply more sun block okie?

i' m so tired now. I didn't sleep that much that i though i could during this holiday. really have to catch more sleep now. Nitez...

2007-12-09T17:25:00.000+08:00

Life's enjoyable without school. Trust me... Especially when x'mas is coming there's so many fanciful x'mas tree.

On 8/12/2007:

Ytd went to the airport to send off Sherry & Jean. So excited for them can stayed in Sydney for 5 weeks some more can experience wildlife in Australia. That is something that not everybody can experience especially in s'pore.

Really love the animals dunno what will they be seeing in the wildlife of Sydney? Talking about the animals reminded me of The Golden Compass think the story was a little far fetched but it's not so bad to have a 'demon' anyway. Haha.. was wondering what will my demon be?? i would wanna a koala bear that can b hugged for the whole day, a doggy or a white tiger will be great too....

Okay back to the departure... Think they will have a safe and enjoyable trip ba. Taken a few pic at the airport but haven gotten them yet so cant post em here.

On 7/12/2007

And meet up with sandy, John and Di Tang...

Di Tang just came back from New Zealand. Thought that he will miss us so much but he abandoned us 1 1/2 hours after meet-up. Really mei liang xin... Any way he got us souvenirs!!! The Kiwi is quite adorable and the chocolate is really nice but next time can bring the whole box instead of unfinished pack or not? haha jus joking.

Good thing with tall ppl around is able to zi pian.... But john can u stretch ur hand a little more. Hmp.. see the flash was blocked.. but this pic is nice.

Finally a better looking pic by our long hand photographer John

Sandy's leaving lucky her can go Japan for a white Christmas this year. Girl dun think too much ok things will turn our fine ^v^

Went for drinkS!!! I am so floated look at the drinks...

Forgotten to take John's snowflake... But love the chocolate mud

Cheers... Tried out Clinic so sad cuz din manage to get the wheel chairs seats but at least we found a cosy corner. The waiter and waitress were not dress in nurse costume too. haiz.. Sandy was so high so we tried out the Eski Bar.

Taken at 6 degree Celsius it's so cold that even my camera's condensed.

The Eski bar in Clark quay was too small dun really feel that comfortable, but the drinks were nice we were playing Casino war to pass our time there as well as to clear our drinks. As usual I'm the forfeit queen.

On 6/12/2007

Meet up wif the Eurip II people. 7 ppl turned up! that's is alot to me especially when some r already working. Ate the Belgium waffles. Satisfied... yummy. Hope stella is able to organize another bbq for all the Eurip II ppl. That evil decimal point bluff us say wanna write the lost essay for us but in the end say what i no time to write and i already forget everything!!!

What the heck!?!? Forget？太过分了 YOU better Write ar! u promised us to write de.

2007-12-06T13:56:00.000+08:00

Hurray~

Exam's finished!!!

Yeah... It's time for celebration. My favorite festive season- The Christmas is coming!!!

So much to look forward to this holiday. My to-do-list was already made. The is my sources of motivation for my examinations. Too bad i not gg overseas this holiday...
Nonetheless, my spirit of happiness will be in my wherever i go.

2007-11-15T17:25:00.000+08:00

This is the slackest week i have throughout my 5 semesters. Basically i wasn't doing anything constructive to my academic. I almost went out every day. I'm am very lazy rite? Exam's coming but all i can think about is what to do after exam. Haven even prepared but already thinking of enjoyment. Was very happy until- Today

Today was waiting for Dar to wake up. So checked my e-mail. My mood is entirely dampened cuz of the stupid comments by the forensic TA.

What the Heck!!! They restricted our writing to 5 pgs Arial font 12 with double spacing yet got the cheek to say my report is too brief and do not have sufficient information. Hello!!! i spend 2 days editing to 5 pgs lo. And wat?Introduction Prof Stella Tan already briefed us to write on either history or classification or advancement what. I wrote on classification they she say i din write on the other 2. She stupid till dunno how to follow instruction issit? PIGHEAD Hate this school hope it's tearing down soon. Blood sucker school suck ppl's blood give poor services.

2007-11-11T23:32:00.000+08:00

Today went out with dar~ He wanted to clear some of the item on my wishlist- Adidas track shoe. Lynn doesn't have any shoe for jogging at the moment. I used my pink addidas sneaker for jogging and got bruise in my toe nails. Hmp...

I was thinking i might not need to get Adidas cuz i only wear them for jogging, it's quite a waste of money to get one of those. We r rounding about the Queensway shopping complex hoping to find the designed that i fancied. I saw one which i like on the magazine called the " Respond' or maybe is formotion? oop i cant remember. Anyway i din get any cuz the design that i like doesn't have my size. Haha... maybe the shoe are telling me that i shouldn't waste money buying them and kept them in the cupboard.

The trip wasn't fruitless cuz Dar managed to get a pair a track shoe. I chose this design for him. I glad he likes it. This proves that i know u well dear~ And it's time for u to change lo that old shoe that i bought for u was already 3 year old.

The only brand wif three strips....

Dar & his Adizero

After that we went to orchard road~ And Metro is having 20% storewide!!! It's so crowded that no BA is serving, and i don't seem to have anything in mind either. Exam makes me lost interest in almost every thing. I not sure whether it's a good thing or a bad thing, i saved money but i getting more and more unlike me!

Dar persuade me to get the Shu uemura's Lash curler, but just dun feel like getting it and i dunno y. After that i saw the X'mas set for Clarins Mascara. It selling the price of the mascara with addition of remover and eye cream. It quite worthwhile to get it though i still have mascara at home. Should i get it or not? Haha i got it anyway. An early X'mas present from him.

Muack~ thanks Dar~

The complete set on my hand

Clarins is a good brand tried their remover before it got a biting sensation but is effective. So girls pls get it fast as it's while stock lasts.

Dar i appreciate whatever u have done for me. Thanks for being wif me.

On Tuesday 6/11/2007

Hey guys been wanting to intro this nice America's food called Botak Jones. I ponned IA to eat this with Dar. It is located at Clementi's Kopitiam nearby clementi MRT. Walked out of the control station turn right and walked straight u should able to see it.=)

A picture of the stall...

It stated Authentic America's food... somemore at good price... the food is appealing as well

Fish & Chip

Cajun Chicken

The portion is big and the fries is yummy... my fish & chip is the small size one lo.. Food in coffee shop can be nice too. wink~ wink~

OOp so late already i going to dreamland now....

Tml will be a better day. Good nite!!!

2007-11-11T10:46:00.000+08:00

Went to janice 21th Birthday party~ It's flower theme... Every girl likes flowers. She decorated her party with flowers. Wow. Alvin and Janice have been together for 1 yrs plus lo. They look like a loving couple which is so loving~ Alvin got her a IXUS digital camera. That must cost him a bomb. Envy Janice got such a good bf. Can have alot of pampers and loves, flowers, surprises and good memories.

And i saying too much? Well that is my point of view only. I feel that i have no freedom of speech sometime whatever i say sound like hinting and whatsoever to ppl. Which i absolutely have no such intention. Even if i have that person doesnt care about what i say.

我要什么都没有。我的人生到底有什么意识？

If i can reverse the time to my 21th birthday i will want my theme to be princess. At least can be a princess for a day. A day of Cinderalla is sufficient. I never forget the efforts that he put into for my birthday btw. Lynn is not ungrateful like what he thinks.

是我太贪心了吗？我难到不能有希望和要求吗？
在一起如果不能把心里的话说出来，那要怎么互相鼓励和支持呢？
受伤的心灵，能痊愈吗？

Exam is coming should start getting prepared lo. Motivation, confidence and support are abandoning me at this moment.

我想我是这个世界上最不快乐的人。

~A Super duper belated Present~

2007-10-31T22:44:00.000+08:00

Today finally went for the manicure near Dar house that i always wanted to try. That shop provides acrylic and gel extension service too. But those r too expensive think i just have to wait for my nails to grow longer for nail arts. The lady was really patient for what i can say and i think i am quite satisfied with her skill, haven tried the nail arts though. Some more there is alot cheaper than PINC. The environment of course not as good as PINC that haf big basin,big arm chair etc.

Some manicurist just wanna earn money anyhow file ur nail till not even one, and never paint evenly, then charge u xtra for using OPI.... What the heck!!! esp those in Bugis. almost all r very fond of doing that. i think it's cheating ppl' money.

I choose this blue..

Somehow this colour reminds me of X'mas

Met Wanqi for dinner, she is still as usual pretty and slim~ No matter how hard she try to gain weight oso wont gain lo. What's this? so i must try to gain weight so that i will lost weight? She still got liang xin. Got present for me from the Melaka n Bangkok trip. I also gotten my super duper belated birthday present.

Happy me with birthday present

Very nice packaging

Guess what's inside??? Bikini!!! Hey! Thought that is suppose to b ah keong and ah mei's present??? At least it does not have octopus print on it. Haha

Quite Nice

Thank you guys for the present... gan dong to the verge of tears see how i treasure these present. Motivation to lost weight lo~ Next meeting u will see me eating salad and plain water. haha. I'm not really a beach ger i need to lost 10kg to become a Bikini babe lo. Anyway, thanks ger Muackz~ Rmb our date on Dec ar...

Btw Happy Birthday Pineapple~

May ur wish to find ur sugar mummy can come true~

~放羊的星星~

2007-10-30T21:13:00.000+08:00

Finished watching 放羊的星星, really touch by this drama. Really addicted to this show manz. No wonder suyong says this is the best Taiwan idol drama. Really lo very very nice. Like the starring actor Jimmy Lim 林志穎~ he is so shuai~ can scarified everything to persist the relationship he trusts. Really touch. The very last time that i am so addicted to drama is meteor garden 1.

Highly recommended!!! A bit tempted to get the VCD. The actress 劉荷娜 is a Korean the Korean women are all so pretty. Flawless and fair complexion everything that a girl will b envious about. She is so so so pretty. and what she is born in 1986-March-22 younger than me!!!. Love her. Beautiful things are good for eye. hee..

Pretty rite~ tml gg to meet Wanqi so much to tell her never meet for months must intro her this show too. ppl there 100% worth watching. recommended by: Lynn ( Drama Expertise)

2007-10-29T14:10:00.001+08:00

Throughout last week was bad for me~ Bad luck pls leave me alone!!! On the sat I was busy editing the slides for the presentation so never go out with him. So he say he will meet me later but not confirm. haiz i rather not meet, just wanted to watch my show to relax a bit, but get scolded by him. Gers can be sensitive but Guys r so insensitive! Luckily everything is fine now....

Haven been posting sometime happy recently... Cuz there isn't anything worth to be happy about ...

Finally finished editing my slides and happily send to ZT, then realize i am so unlucky tat my doc wasn't saved. i was so desperate losing something like that means ur efforts were gone down the drain. I feel like a Hai(4) ren jing, because of me ppl haf to do extra work. I am deeply sorry about it... really felt like dying when i was redoing them

I really have no affinity with that old com. Hate it to the core. Y did i still use it? I have no choice cuz sis was doing her FYP report. And thought that it was fixed since it was stable these few months but it failed me again. Last time also cuz my FYP report to be lost and during yr one cuz my physical report to be lost. i spent so much to fix it still like that. Really feel like smashing it using a baseball bat.

Tml is that day. I must jia you. sortta have a kind of feel that every bad thing is gg to end soon.

Wanna post something that is happy~ I hope and I pray... There will b some happiness in my life.

2007-10-27T09:55:00.000+08:00

My Life's is beyond my control

Things always don't turn out the way i expected

Just when u thought that u can make it through

Fate play a joke on me again

Why do ppl jus see flaws w/o appreciating the good....

Eye of the perfectionists can't tolerate the slightest fault

If mistake are unforgivable then y is there a phrase saying," ppl who never make mistake never learn?"

They dun understand not everybody see perfect in the same way.

Time flies but not fast enough.

i wanna change my past but i cant

i wanna to be in my future but i cant

Presently, i can only live to the fullest so that i will have no regret.

Just when i though i can take it easy, i am hurt again by the innate nature of homosapien

Started to know more about Red.M.T. She says got no goal in life. That sounded just like me. I have no goal in life and dun even noe who i am. Lynn seem to b the closest stranger to me. It true tat we take ppl who r nice and genuine concern for us for granted. I am sorry all my dearest. Their care for us is selfless feels like gg up to my mum hugging her telling her how much i love her.

About Ah-Na, she is the most easy-gg person i even encountered. No matter how unfairly she is being treated, she still smile and accept what lies in front of her. This is a very brave and strong character. Not everyone can be as cool as she is.

I haven be really opened up to my thoughs and feelings, i rather share my activities or encounter in my blog, cuz i dunno who will end up reading them.

But to be very very honest now. I really really dun wish to give the presentation on Tuesday.

"It just a presentation it over in no time," said somebody

It's not the matter of long or short. Can u imagine a burden that nobody wants was thrown to u? Beside having to overcome my stage fright, i have to live up to the expectations of them. I felt like a puppet with absolutely no freedom of speech, no pride, no respect. U can only do ur best when u have the wiliness to do them.

Of course i have been sorting my mindset and make myself feel happier, willing and ready to present. Take it easy is easier to be said than done. What i want is some supports and encouragements, what i got is that kind of u better present well and dun pull down my grade attitude from somebody. If u are sincerely worried then take the job. IF NOT pls SHUT UP. The truth is ugly. Ppl who r nice on the surface might be the greatest faker on earth.

Haiz... this is supposed to be Friday's post. Friday is most tired day of week have to be in school from 12pm to 10 pm. Ytd was doing amendment to my slide. My eye was 1/2 closed when i'm doing them. Some of the points i dun understand too.... I have to change them so that i dun sound like a Nagy ah ma on Tues.

~Foot Reflexology~

2007-10-26T13:46:00.000+08:00

The first time in my life that i have done a real foot Reflexology

How does it feels? Ouch! Ouch! Ouch! So painful yet ticklish ~ Initially i thought the it was those relaxing kinda of massage but end up Ouch!!!

Whenever i saw the variety show showing those artists struggling and screaming during the whole massage process i thought it was exaggerating. How can that be so painful? But really it is very very very painful!

Din know I'm so "problematic" before the session begins. My whole leg is aching like nobody business.

First my gastric is too acidic

And digestion system is weak.

Then my leg muscle is fatigue.

Then i have stiff shoulder & stiff neck.

Then have insufficient rest.

Then have migraine.

And even my brain also got problem!!! Not woodbridge that kind of course

It is the lacking of quality rest.

Since when did Lynn become so unhealthy. But look at my size i am still as round, so unfair. Unhealthy and fat!!! I rather be unhealthy but slim.

Digestion Problem: Since young already cant eat too full, cant eat too oily, cant gets too hungry if not it my stomach problem will elapse or worst b the Merlion.

Leg Fatigue: ??? Also Dunno why. No wonder i started to get tired after shopping for few hours now. Last time, i can shop for the whole day and almost every day in a week w/o feeling tired.
What's wrong wif me? Luckily i have a "Carry" bF.

Stiff shoulder & neck: Of course la. Doing reportS day n night in front of the com who will not have stiff muscles. And maybe it's time for me to change a pillow. what pillow should i get? can ppl there pls advice? But not the OSIM pillow pls, it cost $199 lo. pengz...

Insufficient rest: I wonder any student in NUS can have sufficient rest!U know what i mean if u r one...

Migraine: So many things to fred about w/o sufficient rest it's weird to not have it.

Most importantly my poor brain. That is the most painful reflex point during the session. Painful until i nearly kick tat person. My tears and cold sweats all drip out man. No wonder i getting stupider my poor brain cannot absorb any thing. But I can go into deep sleep day and night yet cant get quality rest. Haiz why issit so? No wonder i feel so lethargic cuz my brain carried all the burdens to my bed.

The weird thing is my sister enjoyed it! She say she loves that kind of pain and was enjoying. What an abnormal foot she have! lol... Actually it think i am more abnormal lo. It like every part is painful for me!! She even laff at me lo. Halo~ this is not for show!!! It really painful really feel like kicking that person. After the massage, i hesitated for awhile b4 standing cuz i dunno whether my legs r still able to function. And i feel very tired and sleepy after the massage. Hope i will have a good dream and quality rest tonight.

That person strongly recommend me to do more reflexology as a therapy.
Should I? Ermm... SEe how !st...

2007-10-25T13:52:00.000+08:00

Went back to school today to submit report. Haiz.... school is so so so far from my house.

I really wanna thanks Joanna for photocopying the pharmacopia for me. Come to think about it, i think i'm already dead in NUS without her helps. I sort of gan dong by her act~ If not for her dun think i will even be in the babe's group. I think i am lucky to have her as my friend. haha What' wrong wif me getting so emotional these days.

Suddenly thought of Wanqi, Denise & pineapple too... Realized that we haven meet-up for a long long time. I'm stuck in this bloody school qi's working haiz so diff to meet. I believed that strong friendship is sustainable even when we do not meet up often. True friend accept who u r but not what u r. Working in flex is one of the important event in my life of cuz I get to know these impt ppl that i probably wont forget in my life.

Life's is unpredictable so Lynn just wanna treasure ppl around her and to love herself more!!! Love urself every day~

if u dun?

who will?

~Fairness in Life~

2007-10-24T14:55:00.000+08:00

Bad luck continue on the 2nd day of the week.

What is fairness?

Anybody really believe that fairness existed?

If fairness exists why do ppl in Africa starve to death and suffer from malnutrition while some waste the good foods by pouring then down the bin n made themselves anorexia?
If fairness exists then why do some ppl study so hard just to get a pass while some genius can effortlessly scored?
If fairness exist why do some ppl get respected as an indivdual but some are not?
if fairness exist why do some ppl born with a golden spoon while I'm born with a plastic spoon working so hard (tutoring) just to get some money.

To me, fairness does not exist. It only exist if the situation favour u... I hate myself and hate the way i portray myself to ppl. What do ppl say about me? Ppl: Lynn's talkative, noisy , loud and maybe a funny presenter? I learned that what u portray will affect how ppl treat or feels about u. So ppl like me should be pin-pointed and be used as a bin for ppl to vent their frustration. PPL OUT THERE PLS DUN JUDGE A PERSON UNLESS U R CERTAIN THAT U KNOW THEM WELL. It hurtful...

Lynn u r good! u r funny! what is the definition of good? Seriously do u remember what i presented or u think that i am good cuz i am entertaining enough? I did not pin-point to anyone cuz i am sensitive enough to know how the others might feel.

So....am i a clown in my presentation? Is that the Lynn that u think she is??? ya of course i dun denied that i am noisy. These are parts of me that i hate. Do ppl who think think this way about me thought that i am not worth their respect? cuz she's like that....

Everybody took diff module and r busy with it, so am I. It's pointless to compare who is busier. Furthermore, if ppl out there have something in their mind about what i wrote. Pls think thrice. Ppl who also NEVER volunteer to be a presenter pushing the unwanted task to me. What position do u have to say such a thing?

So Lynn cant be sensitive cuz she is crappy? Lynn cant be serious cuz she is always joking. Lynn cant kept secret cuz she is talkative. Is that what ppl think? I swear I never spill out secret that i promised to keep.

A good thing to be soft-spoken person is that u are reliable, super nice wont gossip about ppl and will kept secret. Crap and phew... Never judge a book by its cover!

Ppl who are more reserve and serious often get more respect and have their feeling sensitively taken care of. Do anybody dare to ask him to present? What i dun understand is by consensus our groups split up the load and also by consensus we draw lots for see who present then why assigned the task to me. So issit fair to me? And by right everybody should contribute to a project, i am glad that my group has no free rider but from the distribution of load and effort contributed. Fair?

Some benefits were mentioned to me. Who doesn't knows? i can further add points:

Learning experience
Gaining Confidence
Learning presentation skill
Enhancing ur resume
Being more popular ( dun think anybody will not recognised u after the presentation)
Better understanding of topic
Overcome ur stage fright
Got a better start than ppl who does not have such experience.
might even help in ur career development.

However, nobody wants this "excellent" job. Whatever said cannot be undone. I won't pushed away my responsibility cuz it was me for draw the lot. What i am unhappy about is being misunderstood and pin-pointed. And if ppl really think this is beneficial pls offered to take it from me, otherwise pls just keep quiet cuz it just sound like sarcasm.

The reason for me to post this is not to reprimand anyone. Just hope that i can be slightly respected and not taken for granted. I was jus writing this as my personal opinion. Ppl who do have something in their mind about me i do accept criticism!!! I wanna clarified i am noT scolding or finding fault or whatsoever.

I just wanted to jot down what i am feeling at the moment.

I will probably laff at my stupidity in the future....

~ A Hungry Man is an Angry Man~

2007-10-22T18:30:00.000+08:00

Bad luck falls upon me on the 1st day of the week. First i nearly overslept for pract again, eventually reached the bus-stop but missed bus 95. Reached the lab and realized that i typed my long report's cover pg as short report and the TA already marked it!!! i'm so worried that i have to do another long report to compensate, so i approached khoo SB, for explanations. He said it's okay and get my marked report back to mark.... OMG!!! I am so worried that he will mark me down cuz the TA already marked once, so he can easily spot my mistakes lo.

Worst thing is i tell Dar that i will be meeting him at around 12 after my pract. But pract timing is very unpredictable one Drag a bit left the lab at around12.30. Sherry got a compile of expt from 1 to 12 and offered us to photocopied. so i spent around 1 hr photocopied $5 worth of notes and met Dar at 2pm. He so NOT understanding blame me for letting him waited so long and that he's super hungry then i still so late. i already told him that i gg to photocopy notes already if he's hungry he should eat something 1st wat. I'm also very hungry lo FYI i woke up at 8 am and have light breakfast only! Then called me so so many times. i carried the notes so heavy how to picked up his calls. Some more give me "black face" when we met. I'm so angry!!!

It's after he ate his lunch then he's back to normal. Indeed, "A Hungry Man is an Angry Man". haha.. Next time u bully me again i will blog to complain about u. Bleah~

2007-10-21T13:47:00.001+08:00

Lynn deserved an enjoyable weekend after all the hectic works. Hurray... Guess what Dar & me wento AMK hub, it's opened for 1 year plus lo still haven got the chance to shop there yet. A neighbourhood shopping mall is not bad though! A small-scale non-smoking REVEAL campaign was held there. A friendly girl approached us to join this campaign. Basically what they do is to take a pic of us and use some software to predict how we look like when we are 60 year old. Sounds pretty amazing rite?

Here's the result, erm....

The pic on the left is what we will look like if we r non-smoker and the pic on the right is what we will look like if we r smoker. lol. Horrible. 1st: pls get a taller person to take nicer shot of us, the girl we take pic of us is like 150cm? she held the camera so close to my face , that i almost blink my eye. Dar was worst. The angle of elevation is so great. Poor Dar looks like a giant while poor ger looks like a dwarf. lol. 2nd : That pic probably is how i will look when I'm 80, is jus blurring of pic and darkening at some regions. From the pic, Dar looks younger if he smoked... DISAPPOINTED! In the end, we rec a complementary voucher from zA. Well that is a bonus, cuz we joined jus out of curiosity and fun.

~Dinner Time~

Pepper Lunch!!! Dar ordered the double salmon. I ordered salmon pasta. Yummy... when the food was served the 1st thing that came to my mind is to stir n mix them.

But the 'helpful' waitress said," Do u know noe to cook? i thought there's another innovative way to cook the pasta cuz it's new on their menu.

"No," said Lynn.

"Mixed them", said the waitress. Then she walked away.

I was like huh? Do anyone dunnoe how to mixed? lol. Leng xiao hua for the day. haha I think is better for us to demo how to cook.

So u can be a good cook too if u r a good stirrer. hehe.

It was an exhausted day. but it's fruitful cuz i bought a dress and a pair of shoe. And manage to order 2 necklaces. Shopping really brighten up my day. Hope to get the necklace by November. lalala ...

~Hectic Workload~

2007-10-18T03:59:00.000+08:00

Whew.. never blog for about a week or so. This is my sleep deprived period man~ so many things to complete. Happily went prawning last Friday after IA quiz. It's my first time prawning, if u r gg to ask me whether it's fun or not i can only say: " It's fun if u can catch the prawn" Btw i caught two prawns lo. Hey u think it's so easy to catch ar... At least i caught some. it's better than nothing OoP~ the BBQ food was nice, the babes prepared all the foods so my duty is to clear them haha. They person in charge was nice enough to let up extend for nearly 1 hr FOC. btw i sleep it was already 3am. The prawns must be laughing at me for missing my beauty sleep jus for two prawn. But i still wanna go prawning. Any interested parties pls msg me. hehe

The next day was even more siong. I woke up at 10 plus getting ready to go zt house for the IA project. That kuku late as usual made me waited for so so so long. Guess what zt, kuku and me, the amazing three been making the comparisons all the way till 7 plus in the morning. That stupid kuku kept saying lame jokes. hello~ bu shi comparison de dong xi can dun say or not!!! Luckily, zt & me is accompanied by FM933 if not really can go mad just be listening to his lame jokes. I really salute to zt, she extended our 4 pgs comparison into 6 pgs. haha. I am really proud that i broke my own record for not sleeping within 24 hrs. haha. I do look like zombie, haven recovered from my sleeping debts yet.

Thanks to zt for helping me to submit my reports, if not i dun think i will have time to post this too. So tired and craving for KTV after listening to 933 for the whole night. OMG starting forensic paper now~ Nightmare awaits. Sob~ sob~

Escapda de Orchard Road

2007-10-01T00:04:00.000+08:00

This is the last day of my term break haven been doing something constructive yet. Recently was fretting over some crisis. I'm so sorry dar for being so bad-tempered recently. Dar cheered me up by treating me my favourite Japanese food. hee. This is wat i ordered.

Does this look appetizing? But it's too salty, but manged to finished the whole thingy. Dar started eating right away, he must be famished after consoling her dear gf. haha. Looked his Ramen looks delicious....

Yummy... It's pretty late after our dinner but we still manged to shop around orchard road. Dar got himself a jean which definitely looked good on him, cuz is what i choose for him and even forced him to give it a try. Poor me din get anything and my leg ached cuz of the new heel that i wore. Tml will be a better day i hoped. For now, have to get some rest lo...

Birthday Treats for zt & kuku

2007-09-30T11:10:00.000+08:00

Oh.. so surprise to see Lynn up so early blogging? Actually have to give tuition in the morning today meanwhile just blog to past my time. lolx. yeah Lynn have gotten herself a certificate ytd, it the Cerf. of head start seminar ha.. A day was spent in school, it was quite useful though. Yawn... din mange to sleep well last night got prodding headache must be games in settler's.

Ya went to settler's ytd to celebrate zt & kuku 's birthday. lol played my favorite "ugly" game the needs lotsa reflex which is obviously absent in kuku that's y he kept losing the game lol. kuku cheated used his nails to scratch me. Lynn shall forgive u since u r the birthday elbow. bleah. Ah-Na also enjoy herself pretty much can tell from her Zi-high look. oOps. Did quite a number of new games as well. There's one called the "Apple" something game cant rmb the actual name. It's a bullshitting game where all of us complete for being lame & funny. Finally our 2hr gaming session have ended and they started moving out to crystal jade for our present giving ceremony. Glad that zt likes her piggy hope it does not reminds her too much abt sian zhu. kuku also like his present so much till tears streaked down his poky cheek lol.

Oh today is a happy Saturday gg out in the afternoon Hee.. What!!! Lynn realised that is the end of the term break. OMG quizzes & reportS & term paper & project. It's a vicious cycle can't wait to graduate.

Lynn have to go for tutoring now.. oH later have to think of what children's day present to get for my tuition kid. ha Lynn is a committed teacher. Blink*